I realize my searching for answers and pessimism usually comes with down time. I get time on my hands and go searching for the meaning of it all.
Don’t get me wrong, I like that and feel the pull and need. But then I get fulfilled for a bit and the cycle repeats.
Right now, I’m feeling the changes…I spent my summer in meditation and reflection. I also wanted to find the supernatural.
Now, I am in the mood to live some real life. I am so enjoying every moment and I mean every one! I know at the beginning of summer, I was still being pulled by the forces of others emotions. My family is my biggest pull.
Now I see the humor in it. I was so ridiculous with how I was feeling and acting.
I do not need to take on anyone else’s feelings. It is okay for someone else to be upset and me not join them. Now that was a revelation.
Although I have not been to group in the last 2 weeks, I have been spending as much time as I can in reflection, and I am so looking forward to listening to Rinpoche speak in a few weeks.
Until then, happy school year!

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