“The inappropriate use of extension, or projection, occurs when you believe that some emptiness or lack exists in you, and that you can fill it with your own ideas instead of truth.”
Believing God gave me everything I needed to be the best me I can be has been the hardest lesson I have ever learned. For some reason I had it in my head that I was in charge of my destiny. It’s true to a certain point. God is not going to fill out my college application or drive me to class or fill out my application and wake me for work. Or buy me the lotto ticket. (I’m still praying on that one. Maybe I was really born to be one of those strike it rich people.)
Truth is, I have been pulled in the direction of my calling for years. When I stripped away all of the glamour of careers that others were doing and quit getting blinded by all of the exciting possibilities, I realized I had been living my personal passion in the background. The problem was that I had this feeling of emptiness, of not being good enough. Those were not my feelings, nor were they God’s guiding words. They were put on me by society but more importantly, I accepted them as true. I believed that raising kids was not enough. That having a small one income was not enough. I watched my husband go and have fun, make purchases, while I suffered. Not because he would want me suffering, but because I didn’t believe I had deserved it.
I know there are so many that feel this. I believe it’s because those who have bought into the status quo want others to share in their misery. They are too afraid to live their own truth. But what would happen if we all took our wonderful free will and coupled it with that quietness where God speaks, and we decided to believe we are good enough, in fact, perfect, just how God created us. Well, I’ll let you know when I figure it out. Because honestly, I’m still working on it. Fear still creeps in. Especially when money is of question. Fear of being penniless is still huge. But a wise man told me not too long ago, “it’s all God’s money.”