You bring up everything

inside of me that I wanted to let go. Alone, I stormed the clouds of doom and made them wish me away with my madness. But with you, I am weak. I fear things that are made up in an ever evolving loop of loss that never existed. Your absence sends me spiraling into a…

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~My Love~

The words drip from your lips easily. You say you were afraid. I ask of what, thinking it was the danger that I felt myself to be in. Anger. Mine. Building and causing all of this fairy tale to crumble. It seemed absurd to me. Not because you literally saved my life, how could anger…

forgive me

I can feel your breath, hands on my skin. Forgive me if the sweetness in my chest is tainted with a fear. I have never pulled in the weight of a man and allowed the time to dance into the possibility of forever. Your soft words vibrate through my soul with more pleasure than I…

a final good bye

Stable heart, random hopes of surging dreams like a wave of destiny. Not understanding that the becoming of one, ends another. Forced to feel, from a self-fulfilling prophecy of dread or doom compared to bliss and passion, knowing you cannot have one if you don't chance the other. Good-bye to the idea of safety that…

Bring me Back – a plea to God

In the grasp of life's delusion's you brought me wings in the shape of a man. Broad shouldered and strong in unwavering belief that all will be as it should, he gave me hope that the world would sort itself out. It has. I have found my feet stand firm against the earth and I…

My wish for you

A drop in the ocean, twists and pulls, swirls and dives, pushed out, pulled in, gasping, forever dancing in the whim of the waters, seemingly caressing every side. A feather in the wind, reaching ever higher, burned by the sun, coaxed by the breeze, afraid to fall, yet destined to be unsure of whether the…

~hate~

Legs wrapped around sadness born from passion that was thought to have died two days before but revealed itself again with no warning. The tears meant nothing but goodbye. She can never trust him now. Yet he still stands a little too close. His bare skin brushes on hers in the middle of daytime business.…

the beauty of the fall

If only the graces would define the meaning behind the hole they placed in my heart, I would understand the why as I traverse this earth, lone souled with no arm to hold. Others stand beside me from time to time, but never long enough for me to feel the weight removed from the boulder…

His eyes

They still smile even when he's not. They speak in kindness and fill me with hope. They remind me of the man I loved. They belong to another man. Not the one who stands before me. They belong to the boy who stole my heart. They were the only truth in the sea of lies.…

The Great Loneliness

Spent a lifetime swimming in deceptive waters, bled from tears wishing to belong. Gasping for air as the bystanders watch, all the while thinking the noises are splendid songs given out of love. When in fact, they are cries for help wrapped in smiles. Eventually, fatigue gives in. Going under feels like freedom. Kicking slowly,…