Live another day

The sun shines down through the cold, bringing with it a sense of urgency. Awareness heightens....it builds inside this mind until my chest feels as if it might run away without me. How strange that my body would betray me when my thoughts align just the same. Either-or, the stage is set to wake up…

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savior

savior. dark, damp, dusty; the words you send feel like a wet basement and a cage. they sit on my skin and crawl. I imagine the young who see you as their saving, they hear the words as praise, acceptance, and it makes me want to vomit. a whisper, a drug paralyzing common sense when…

friend

you say you don't lie, I 've caught you in a few spin a web, build your world but don't call me friend kiss me in public and laugh your big laugh calling attention have it, let them believe don't worry, your secret's safe with me friend

You bring up everything

inside of me that I wanted to let go. Alone, I stormed the clouds of doom and made them wish me away with my madness. But with you, I am weak. I fear things that are made up in an ever evolving loop of loss that never existed. Your absence sends me spiraling into a…

the battle wages on

Sometimes my breath still catches. Mindless reality that turns in an instant to a suffocating dawn. Memories flood the space that was once a clear and obvious agenda into a battle field, waging one more war in which I must fight. Heart races, eyes burn. Breathe. This isn't who you are. Warrior. Stand tall and…

~My Love~

The words drip from your lips easily. You say you were afraid. I ask of what, thinking it was the danger that I felt myself to be in. Anger. Mine. Building and causing all of this fairy tale to crumble. It seemed absurd to me. Not because you literally saved my life, how could anger…

forgive me

I can feel your breath, hands on my skin. Forgive me if the sweetness in my chest is tainted with a fear. I have never pulled in the weight of a man and allowed the time to dance into the possibility of forever. Your soft words vibrate through my soul with more pleasure than I…

a final good bye

Stable heart, random hopes of surging dreams like a wave of destiny. Not understanding that the becoming of one, ends another. Forced to feel, from a self-fulfilling prophecy of dread or doom compared to bliss and passion, knowing you cannot have one if you don't chance the other. Good-bye to the idea of safety that…

Bring me Back – a plea to God

In the grasp of life's delusion's you brought me wings in the shape of a man. Broad shouldered and strong in unwavering belief that all will be as it should, he gave me hope that the world would sort itself out. It has. I have found my feet stand firm against the earth and I…

My wish for you

A drop in the ocean, twists and pulls, swirls and dives, pushed out, pulled in, gasping, forever dancing in the whim of the waters, seemingly caressing every side. A feather in the wind, reaching ever higher, burned by the sun, coaxed by the breeze, afraid to fall, yet destined to be unsure of whether the…